Despite for numerious reasons that I did not want to be part of IAUT again. I got elected for the outreach committe. I hope it goes well this year.seeing friends again, going out to Saboo, then to another friends home for a chat was fun. But now it's back to reality. My confusion over what I am going to do after August. I am just drained out of energy now and don't want to think or do anything with my life. I wonder how my parents are so energetic and move to the unknown and take the challange. I am just tired of thinking. I am tired of stratigic planning..I just want to close my eyes and not think at all..and don't see the people, that by seeing their life, make me doubt my self and my abilities. I just want to get detached from this world..may be just die.